Mommyhood

All of you are aware that during my pregnancy I laughed at anyone who said, "you're going to want another one!" My statement was, "if God wanted me to have two, he would give me twins cause I'm not doing this again!" I've been packing up baby boy clothes and getting ready to send them on their way. Guilt and sadness set in. I want Jake to have a sibling. I would love for him to have a little brother. I began thinking about how much I enjoy spending time with my brother. I realized Jake wouldn't have that, ever.

I kept my mouth shut cause I didn't want to hear, "I told ya so!" from everyone I know. I didn't want to bring it up to Mike cause through the pregnancy his statement was, "no more. I'm not getting any younger." I even told the doctor I was one and done. Then, by accident, the subject got brought up. Needless to say I'll be getting my maternity clothes back from my sister-in-law and I don't think I can part with all the baby boy clothes.

I think Mike was more shocked that I actually said I wanted another one. I've enjoyed Jake so much and damnit, I'm a good mom. To think I only get to do this once makes me a little sad. Of course, the first two months of Jake's life were very hard with all my medical crap. And, the kid still doesn't sleep through the night, but I want the chance to do it again. It would be better if I could just stop time and Jake never get any older, but that's not gonna happen.

So, I think next summer/fall we will start making room for another baby. I'm still a little shocked at myself. God knows pregnancy sucks and so do kidney stones, but all that pain and wacked out hormones are worth it. I mean, how could you not want more than one? And, as you can see, Jake is thrilled about the idea of being a big brother. Ha!!

Day Care Insanity, Part Three

I was finally able to file my complaint yesterday. I called the 1-800 number to get information on how to file a complaint and they routed me to a local office. I called the Austin office and when I told the lady I wanted to file a complaint she asked me if I had the abuse/neglect hotline number. I explained to her that I felt "abuse/neglect" was kind of harsh. She said, "even if you just suspect it, then you should call the abuse/neglect hotline." So, I did. Of course, I was on hold for 30 minutes and finally gave up. Thankfully I was able to file a report online. No telling how long I would have been waiting to speak to a human. I thought that was a little ridiculous.

At first I was worried about making a bigger deal out of the situation than someone else might have seen it. I don't want to be one of those parents. But, after remembering how I found Jake that day and other things I witnessed, I figured those things could be considered abuse. The lady not allowing Jake to eat could be considered abuse and/or neglect. I typed up everything and even gave the names of the two old bats. They're definitely gonna know who filed the report even though I'm sure the investigators can't give out that information. And I'm assuming it will be investigated. I would think they have to investigate no matter how big or small the incident may be. I'm also pretty sure that as the complainant I have the right to know the outcome of the investigation. I was unable to get decent information yesterday. I keep thinking that someone will call to speak with me about it. At least that's what I did when I conducted investigations of MR facilities. It's pretty much the same thing. We'll see what happens!

Voting

This is always an iffy topic to discuss, but I've had enough badgering and judgments.

I've been saying for the past 4 years that I was NEVER going to vote again. I think our country is in bad shape. Of course, I'm not the president and I haven't the slightest clue how hard it is to run a whole country. I also never really paid attention in Government class cause it was really boring to me. I always got away with a "c" and that was okay with me.

I'm so sick and tired of listening to people at work bash people who aren't voting for Obama. It's like religion, to me. Just because you're Catholic doesn't make your religion better than mine. Being a Baptist doesn't make you better. Being a Lutheran or Methodist doesn't make you right. It's all different interpretations. I don't think it's right to judge people because they practice a different religion than you. Just like I don't think it's right to judge people because they don't share the same opinion as you when it comes to politics.

I don't watch anything leading up to the Presidential Election. I can't stand listening to each side bash the other side. I think that each candidate tells people what they think they want to hear and maybe not so much what they actually plan to do if elected. All I really care about is not paying higher taxes. We pay too much as it is, in my opinion. And, maybe lower the effing gas prices...but I know that won't be regulated, so I won't go there.

In the past few days I have been listening to people at work bash McCain and Palin. One person made a comment about "that woman!" This same person was all about Hillary when she was running for the nomination. It's okay for Clinton to be a woman but apparently not okay for Palin. And who effing cares that Palin has a pregnant 17 year old daughter. That's nobody's business but there's. Are we going to judge them for that? How many people do you know who've had babies out of wedlock? It doesn't matter.

My point is...SHUT-UP! If you want to vote for Obama, have at it. If you want to vote for McCain, have at it. But stop judging the other side. Who died and made you God? Back in the day when George Washington was elected president, was this how it was? Is this how they intended it to be? Was is always about the Democrats hating on the Republicans and the Republicans hating on the Democrats? (Oh dear God, I used those both in the same sentence. Will I go to Politic Hell for that?) Will there ever be a time where both sides can be civil to each other? I mean, this is the person who's going to run our country. Why do we have to choose between two sides that hate each other? It's not like a ball game rivalry. This is our country. Isn't there a better way?